When I joined Mary Kay a few years ago, instruction was given to write a description of who you are and who you're going to be in glowing terms. Then to write a few affirmative sentences like, "I am a positive woman, I see beautiful women everywhere I go, I am successful, I am going to be a director," etc. Post them on your mirror and say them to yourself several times a day. Another source, can't remember where, said to put pictures of what you want where you can see them every day and imagine yourself having what are in the pictures.
Napoleon Hill in his book "You Can Work Your Own Miracles (How to Condition Yourself for Success), printed in 1971, talks about conditioning your mind. He had an experience at the dentist's office where he immersed himself in thinking of something so strongly that he forgot to focus on the pain. Considering the fact that he was having six teeth taken out at the same time, I think that's an amazing demonstration of a conditioned mind.
Though focusing, as Hill did, and affirmations seem to be two different things, they have a connection in that they are both thoughts that are being fed to the mind. One type of thought is to distract, the other to train. Right now I think it's important for me to train, or continue training my mind to think of certain things, and it doesn't hurt to have reminders of the positive because the negative still has a strong foothold. So I'm putting a note on my bathroom mirror. It will say things like "I am a likeable person, I plan to be prosperous, I plan to be focused, I will have an organized life." Maybe I'll use those, maybe I'll use others. That's a personal thing.
I once told a finalist for a beauty pageant that the self-doubts she was beginning to show were of her own making. "Your mind doesn't know if the thoughts you're feeding it are good or bad. If you want to win, remind yourself of all the attributes you have that got you this far." In taking my own advice, if I list the attributes I already have, and add the attributes I want to have, and talk myself through the list a few times a day, my mind is going to believe what I tell it. I'll let you know the results next week.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
It was staring me right in the face, and I never noticed!
You know how you can buy a car of a certain model and color and then notice that lots of other people have the same model and color as you do? Yet, you never noticed those cars before. Well, entering into the power within has proven to be like that. I started searching within because of a couple of Cd's, and was intrigued to find that, apparently, only a very select group of people were aware of the ability to tap into the power within and had been willing to share that "secret," that "key," that "wondrous ability." And then, after immersing myself into the works of that select group, I find that the secret, the key, the wondrous ability, is being taught by many, in subtle ways. I just hadn't paid attention until now.
At this point, after reading, listening, and practicing the varied suggested methods, this is what I've concluded: The pursuit of happiness is the base for the use of the power within. The process is to eliminate negative thinking and focus on the positives, which then leads to overlooking obstacles and seeing possibilities; and this leads to believing those possibilities can be realized. By this time, a person will have established a pattern of thinking that reverberates, creating endless possibilities. And then, because what energy you project attracts more of the same, the positivity compounds itself.
Positive thinking, then, is the generator for the power within. The secret, the key, the wondrous ability plugs into that generator and uses every single amp to focus the energy derived to achieve all things possible. The result is that energy--in turn--generates positive thinking and so the circuit is contiguous. Plus, the output of the generator can be increased by, among other things, touching another person positively. In essence, by the continuous positive use of the power within, there is no limit to it's output. And we're all given that power. That's amazing!
At this point, after reading, listening, and practicing the varied suggested methods, this is what I've concluded: The pursuit of happiness is the base for the use of the power within. The process is to eliminate negative thinking and focus on the positives, which then leads to overlooking obstacles and seeing possibilities; and this leads to believing those possibilities can be realized. By this time, a person will have established a pattern of thinking that reverberates, creating endless possibilities. And then, because what energy you project attracts more of the same, the positivity compounds itself.
Positive thinking, then, is the generator for the power within. The secret, the key, the wondrous ability plugs into that generator and uses every single amp to focus the energy derived to achieve all things possible. The result is that energy--in turn--generates positive thinking and so the circuit is contiguous. Plus, the output of the generator can be increased by, among other things, touching another person positively. In essence, by the continuous positive use of the power within, there is no limit to it's output. And we're all given that power. That's amazing!
Friday, October 1, 2010
It's a pendulum
Yesterday I hit a dip, a big dip, and I started to cry. The thing I asked for, the one thing I asked for by the end of the month, didn't materialize. "Ah. There you go." you say. And if you're someone who was so sure all along that this was bunk. You can say, "I told you so." But what I wrote the other day is absolutely true. Though things haven't come as others say they do, or will, I've still managed to make a difference in how I approach each day. So what's the harm in believing, or continuing to believe? We're told to have faith in God; that he hears our prayers and answers them in his way, in his time. And sometimes, something we wanted to have, or have happen, doesn't or won't. This is an exercise in faith and I should expect the same process.
My dip yesterday came from doing a printing job for a client. I had put it off until the last minute and when I was half-way through the job, the printer wouldn't print the copies right. And still won't, and I'm still in the middle of the job. When I figured out what was wrong, and that it would take over $100 and 5 days to fix it, that's when I dipped. All of the doubts were pushing each other out of the way so they could come in first, and a few of them made it. It was through a concerted effort that I was able to pull myself out of the dip within a half hour, and the thought that helped the most--I think--was that by acting fine, and acting positive, I would BE fine and I would BE positive. I ended the day being fine, but as for the positive--I think I'm stuck on pragmatic.
My dip yesterday came from doing a printing job for a client. I had put it off until the last minute and when I was half-way through the job, the printer wouldn't print the copies right. And still won't, and I'm still in the middle of the job. When I figured out what was wrong, and that it would take over $100 and 5 days to fix it, that's when I dipped. All of the doubts were pushing each other out of the way so they could come in first, and a few of them made it. It was through a concerted effort that I was able to pull myself out of the dip within a half hour, and the thought that helped the most--I think--was that by acting fine, and acting positive, I would BE fine and I would BE positive. I ended the day being fine, but as for the positive--I think I'm stuck on pragmatic.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Whether I'm getting more material abundance or not, I feel better about myself
It's important to say that before I started this journey I was extremely depressed. I felt my life was all screwed up, that I had really missed out on the opportunities presented, or that I badly botched the opportunities I had. I thought that, instead of continuing to try to excell the way I've always felt I could, it was time to give up, give in, quit trying and just "roll-with-the-flow." Considering the fact that I have some 20+ years to go in my life, that last thought--in itself--would be enough to send anyone into depression.
Even now I feel that my life has been inconsequential and my accomplishments few. For example: I can play the piano by ear. So I play for myself. I can compose music at the piano, and apparently some people like the compositions, but I've never played my pieces anywhere by church, and I've never published them. (In defense of the latter though, I can play music, and I can read music; I just never learned how to write music.) I've written well, and I can edit a piece to convey more of the feeling that the writer wanted to express themselves. But I've never submitted a piece for publication. I have taken a few exceptional (I think) pictures, but never tried to market them. I've raised 5+2 beautiful kids with great potential, but I haven't raised them well.
There are roadblocks I put up that have kept me from taking my talents beyond my home, but I'm clueless as to how to take them down. (Refer back to the "I can't" blog....I've been really at advising others while constructing my own walls.)
And my marriage has been a living arrangement for over 10 years. Ten years without passion, without emotional love, without a true partner, has definitely helped pave the road to a dispassionate life. I have had few "YEAH!" moments in that time. I mean the moments where you're estatic, happy beyond happy. Moments that create tears of joy. I miss them.
So why the downer intro, you ask? Because in order to track progress it helps to know what the starting point was. I'm no wealthier than I was two months ago. I'm no more beautiful than I was two months ago. My children aren't any closer to me than they were two months ago (well, except for one--who, apparently, I made some good choices with). And I still haven't published. BUT.....I was giving up two months ago. I didn't see any reason not to. Then I started listening and reading and one of the most oft repeated instructions was to have a goal. I've lived my life thinking I had a goal, only to realize, now, that it was a goal to achieve or succeed, but not at what, or where, or when. So it was an aimless goal. If there's any one thing that really makes sense of what I've learned, is that specificity is imperative.
So here's the "rest of the story" (ala Paul Harvey). My interest in learning has been rekindled. My interest in finding myself, my strengths, my attributes, my potential, is escalating. I'm disecting my wants and desires to find the core goal, one that can create an overwhelming craving for it. And because the focus of using the power within is to always think positive, I find myself smiling a lot more. Plus, wonder of wonders, I had a little (it's a beginning) "Yeah!" moment last week that meant I'm starting to live again. A life of truly living now has the potential to be abundantly possible.
Even now I feel that my life has been inconsequential and my accomplishments few. For example: I can play the piano by ear. So I play for myself. I can compose music at the piano, and apparently some people like the compositions, but I've never played my pieces anywhere by church, and I've never published them. (In defense of the latter though, I can play music, and I can read music; I just never learned how to write music.) I've written well, and I can edit a piece to convey more of the feeling that the writer wanted to express themselves. But I've never submitted a piece for publication. I have taken a few exceptional (I think) pictures, but never tried to market them. I've raised 5+2 beautiful kids with great potential, but I haven't raised them well.
There are roadblocks I put up that have kept me from taking my talents beyond my home, but I'm clueless as to how to take them down. (Refer back to the "I can't" blog....I've been really at advising others while constructing my own walls.)
And my marriage has been a living arrangement for over 10 years. Ten years without passion, without emotional love, without a true partner, has definitely helped pave the road to a dispassionate life. I have had few "YEAH!" moments in that time. I mean the moments where you're estatic, happy beyond happy. Moments that create tears of joy. I miss them.
So why the downer intro, you ask? Because in order to track progress it helps to know what the starting point was. I'm no wealthier than I was two months ago. I'm no more beautiful than I was two months ago. My children aren't any closer to me than they were two months ago (well, except for one--who, apparently, I made some good choices with). And I still haven't published. BUT.....I was giving up two months ago. I didn't see any reason not to. Then I started listening and reading and one of the most oft repeated instructions was to have a goal. I've lived my life thinking I had a goal, only to realize, now, that it was a goal to achieve or succeed, but not at what, or where, or when. So it was an aimless goal. If there's any one thing that really makes sense of what I've learned, is that specificity is imperative.
So here's the "rest of the story" (ala Paul Harvey). My interest in learning has been rekindled. My interest in finding myself, my strengths, my attributes, my potential, is escalating. I'm disecting my wants and desires to find the core goal, one that can create an overwhelming craving for it. And because the focus of using the power within is to always think positive, I find myself smiling a lot more. Plus, wonder of wonders, I had a little (it's a beginning) "Yeah!" moment last week that meant I'm starting to live again. A life of truly living now has the potential to be abundantly possible.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Almost every hour of every day
Almost every hour of every day I see evidences of the use of the power within. I see it in myself, I see it in others. I hear accounts, small nuances here and there, evidence not only that it is a viably functioning process, but that it is functioning in my favor. In church today our lesson focused on choices, making the right ones, or making the wrong ones and using the resources available (scriptures, prayer, etc.) to help direct you to making the right choices, positive choices. I commented that making a choice is the result of a thought and that it would be wise to go to the most basic point in the process. If you think "I want to follow Christ," then you'll choose to follow Christ. In times of stress or distress, if you think "I'm mad," or "I'm upset," you'll be upset, but you can think your way calmly through just about anything.
One of the other members of our class commented that she thought to herself, very often, that she was a pleasing, likeable person. When she said that, there were chuckles throughout the classroom. It was perceived as a humorous statement. But the girl who said it, and I knew the truth behind the statement. We both understood the power of positive thinking. By thinking she was pleasant and likeable, she projected that and, as a result, people liked to be around her.
The more I study this, the more I understand, and the more I struggle to practice it. When I say struggle, I mean it because even now I'm still at the infancy of my learning and changing a lifetime of self-doubt, and self-criticism, and insecurity is very, very difficult. Nevertheless, I can see....no, I know it's going to be more than worth the effort.
One of the other members of our class commented that she thought to herself, very often, that she was a pleasing, likeable person. When she said that, there were chuckles throughout the classroom. It was perceived as a humorous statement. But the girl who said it, and I knew the truth behind the statement. We both understood the power of positive thinking. By thinking she was pleasant and likeable, she projected that and, as a result, people liked to be around her.
The more I study this, the more I understand, and the more I struggle to practice it. When I say struggle, I mean it because even now I'm still at the infancy of my learning and changing a lifetime of self-doubt, and self-criticism, and insecurity is very, very difficult. Nevertheless, I can see....no, I know it's going to be more than worth the effort.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Things are beginning to make sense
I've been trying to direct my thoughts, or re-direct my thoughts, if necessary, to the positive. To keep from thinking "I don't like," or "This makes me so mad," or "this won't work," it's taken concerted effort because, as the teachings of the "power" imply, you will attract what you think about. So, when I've started to think "I don't like," I'd catch myself and think instead of what I do like about whatever or whomever the subject was regarding. And when I found it difficult to even do that, I started thinking of some song that would make me smile (look, I'm using every trick I can think of here...don't laugh) and, appropriately, "Happy Talk," from South Pacific came to mind.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Finding the "burning desire"
According to Earl Nightengale, and my other mentors (as I'll call them from now on), the key to fully using the power within is to find something that you want above all else, and are willing to put all your effort into getting. Your "burning desire." It's one thing to daydream about all of the different things you'd really like to have, or do, or be, but this isn't the time to be wishy-washy, or vague, or off-hand. Finding your "burning desire," takes effort, concentrated effort. In helping my husband find his burning desire, I found mine. This is how it happened:
We were on our way to a family reunion and I brought our treasure chest of cd's including "The Secret," "The Five Lessons a Millionaire Taught Me," Kevin Trudeau's cd, and "The Miracle of Believing." Because he likes to listen to books on tape while he drives, I let him finish his book and then we put "The Miracle of Believing" in the player and would play, pause, discuss, play, pause, discuss, until we finally got to the "find your burning desire" point.
The process we went through to help my husband find his burning desire is a little lengthy and detailed, but if you're struggling with the problem too, maybe you could use this as an example to find your own bd. I'll do this in a conversational way, it's easier. My questions will be bold, his reply will be in italics.
"What do you want? What do you really want more than anything else? "Time. More time to do the things I want to do." "How can you get more time?""I can rearrange my schedule, do a little more time-management." "If you choose having more time as your burning desire, how can you measure your success? If you ask for, and get more time, how can you measure it? How can you tell if or when you got it?" "I'll get more things done." "Okay, back to how you can get more time. What can you do that will give you more time--not just use the time you have more efficiently?" "I don't know." (The conversation was going nowhere. He was stuck in generalities.) "Okay, let's try this. What could you give up that would give you more time to do what you want?" (I had something specific in mind and was trying to direct him to think of it himself.). "I don't know." (This went on for a few minutes, so I decided to try a little coaching.) "I know a way you can get more time to do what you want." "How?" "Divorce me." (He looked at me like I had lost my mind.) "Seriously, divorce me. If you're not married you have more time to think of what you want to do, to do what you want to do. You don't have anyone to answer to, or to work around." "Well, I'm not going to divorce you." "Let's say you go into the "extra time" store and in order to get a box of extra time you have to give up something in exchange. What can you give up?" (Note: he's working two jobs). "I don't know." (It's really frustrating when you can see something clearly and someone else can't see it at all.) "What about giving up one of your jobs?" "That would give me more time, but we need the money." "So what you're saying is that you'd like to earn enough money to support your family on one job." "I guess so." "Can you see something about this that would be a goal big enough for a burning desire?" NOTE: to keep this from getting waaaaayyyy too long, and boring (hope it's not already), I'm going to skip to....he actually said what his core burning desire was. "I want a job that will give me more time with my family, and still bring in a good income." TA-DAA .
Nobody said this process was easy, but with a little work, and coaching, my husband just made a paradigm shift and found a little of himself in the process. Remember Bloody Mary in "South Pacific?"......"You've got to have a dream. If you don't have a dream. How you gonna make a dream come true?" And this is how, by coaching my husband, I found my own burning desire: I want to make $150,000 a year using my creativity.
Looking back I realize that whenever I wanted something really bad, and was willing to do whatever I could to get it, I got it. (Except that one guy in 6th grade.....) So I'm going to emblazen that into my mind. I'm going to print several copies of my burning desire and stick them all over my house, and in my car, and in my yard, and I'm going to keep that in the forefront of my mind. Guess I've got my work cut out for me. It's time I learned how to write down the music I've composed at the piano, and get the pieces printed off. And then I'll sit down at the piano and compose some more.
Your turn. Why don't you share with me what you've discovered as your burning desire?
We were on our way to a family reunion and I brought our treasure chest of cd's including "The Secret," "The Five Lessons a Millionaire Taught Me," Kevin Trudeau's cd, and "The Miracle of Believing." Because he likes to listen to books on tape while he drives, I let him finish his book and then we put "The Miracle of Believing" in the player and would play, pause, discuss, play, pause, discuss, until we finally got to the "find your burning desire" point.
The process we went through to help my husband find his burning desire is a little lengthy and detailed, but if you're struggling with the problem too, maybe you could use this as an example to find your own bd. I'll do this in a conversational way, it's easier. My questions will be bold, his reply will be in italics.
"What do you want? What do you really want more than anything else? "Time. More time to do the things I want to do." "How can you get more time?""I can rearrange my schedule, do a little more time-management." "If you choose having more time as your burning desire, how can you measure your success? If you ask for, and get more time, how can you measure it? How can you tell if or when you got it?" "I'll get more things done." "Okay, back to how you can get more time. What can you do that will give you more time--not just use the time you have more efficiently?" "I don't know." (The conversation was going nowhere. He was stuck in generalities.) "Okay, let's try this. What could you give up that would give you more time to do what you want?" (I had something specific in mind and was trying to direct him to think of it himself.). "I don't know." (This went on for a few minutes, so I decided to try a little coaching.) "I know a way you can get more time to do what you want." "How?" "Divorce me." (He looked at me like I had lost my mind.) "Seriously, divorce me. If you're not married you have more time to think of what you want to do, to do what you want to do. You don't have anyone to answer to, or to work around." "Well, I'm not going to divorce you." "Let's say you go into the "extra time" store and in order to get a box of extra time you have to give up something in exchange. What can you give up?" (Note: he's working two jobs). "I don't know." (It's really frustrating when you can see something clearly and someone else can't see it at all.) "What about giving up one of your jobs?" "That would give me more time, but we need the money." "So what you're saying is that you'd like to earn enough money to support your family on one job." "I guess so." "Can you see something about this that would be a goal big enough for a burning desire?" NOTE: to keep this from getting waaaaayyyy too long, and boring (hope it's not already), I'm going to skip to....he actually said what his core burning desire was. "I want a job that will give me more time with my family, and still bring in a good income." TA-DAA .
Nobody said this process was easy, but with a little work, and coaching, my husband just made a paradigm shift and found a little of himself in the process. Remember Bloody Mary in "South Pacific?"......"You've got to have a dream. If you don't have a dream. How you gonna make a dream come true?" And this is how, by coaching my husband, I found my own burning desire: I want to make $150,000 a year using my creativity.
Looking back I realize that whenever I wanted something really bad, and was willing to do whatever I could to get it, I got it. (Except that one guy in 6th grade.....) So I'm going to emblazen that into my mind. I'm going to print several copies of my burning desire and stick them all over my house, and in my car, and in my yard, and I'm going to keep that in the forefront of my mind. Guess I've got my work cut out for me. It's time I learned how to write down the music I've composed at the piano, and get the pieces printed off. And then I'll sit down at the piano and compose some more.
Your turn. Why don't you share with me what you've discovered as your burning desire?
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
A glimmer of results
I have done professional resumes for years, but let my business go dormant to manage a store for a friend for three years. So the store closed and I've had my resume sign out for over six months. Now, without preamble, within two days I've scheduled two resumes, and had another resume to update drop by tonight. There are no coincidences.
I must be doing something right. So I'll keep attracting and believing and meditating. Actually, I am becoming more confident about my requests, and much more generous with my gratitude. Whether there's a massive difference or not, I'm definitely a happier person.
I must be doing something right. So I'll keep attracting and believing and meditating. Actually, I am becoming more confident about my requests, and much more generous with my gratitude. Whether there's a massive difference or not, I'm definitely a happier person.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
It's working....
It's not working as quick as I expected. And I'm not getting some of the results I anticipated. But there are subtle clues, and more than coincidental occurrences. But I'm still fighting with myself because I've asked for something (like ordering something) and I'm expecting it, but my mind keeps inserting "what if" or "how" and I'm not fully believing it will happen. But, on the other hand, I know it will. Geez, talk about undermining yourself!
I can't really talk about it with my husband because he's still at step one, and anything I say now falls on disbelieving ears. And I refer back to an earlier question: If one person starts truly using the powers within, and the partner keeps contradicting, will one negate the other? If our lives are so intertwined and I ask for money, and he keeps expressing disbelief or negativity, will the money come for me? (It's quite acceptable to ask for money.)
I've started meditating for 15 minutes before I go to bed at night. Because my husband's 2nd job starts at 11:30 p.m., I'm free of distraction after he leaves. It's very simple to do and came from one of the books I read. Set an alarm to wake you in 15 minutes then sit quietly and comfortably--hands resting apart--, close your eyes and concentrate on your breathing. If some of your problems or questions try to come to mind, focus harder on your breathing. I'm not going to put down some of the results I've experienced until tomorrow so as not to influence anyone else's meditation expectations.
I think, because of the results of the meditation at night, that I'll try adding 15 minutes in the morning and see if I have different experiences because of the time I meditate. (I NEVER thought I would meditate, and what's really funny is that every time I think of meditation I think of the Beatles meditating.) I'm also looking forward to different experiences happening the more I meditate. This could be very interesting! (okay, now I thought of "Hogan's Heroes")
I can't really talk about it with my husband because he's still at step one, and anything I say now falls on disbelieving ears. And I refer back to an earlier question: If one person starts truly using the powers within, and the partner keeps contradicting, will one negate the other? If our lives are so intertwined and I ask for money, and he keeps expressing disbelief or negativity, will the money come for me? (It's quite acceptable to ask for money.)
I've started meditating for 15 minutes before I go to bed at night. Because my husband's 2nd job starts at 11:30 p.m., I'm free of distraction after he leaves. It's very simple to do and came from one of the books I read. Set an alarm to wake you in 15 minutes then sit quietly and comfortably--hands resting apart--, close your eyes and concentrate on your breathing. If some of your problems or questions try to come to mind, focus harder on your breathing. I'm not going to put down some of the results I've experienced until tomorrow so as not to influence anyone else's meditation expectations.
I think, because of the results of the meditation at night, that I'll try adding 15 minutes in the morning and see if I have different experiences because of the time I meditate. (I NEVER thought I would meditate, and what's really funny is that every time I think of meditation I think of the Beatles meditating.) I'm also looking forward to different experiences happening the more I meditate. This could be very interesting! (okay, now I thought of "Hogan's Heroes")
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Oh brother!
I've learned so well how NOT to do this, that it's going to take more than a paradigm shift. It's going to take a complete demolition and reconstruction. Or, if I do it gradually, I might reach my goal before I die. Uhhh, maybe not.
You see, today was the Parade of Homes. Now, I quit going to them several years ago because I convinced myself I'd never be able to have any of those things so why look. But today I girded up my loin (whatever that means), and we went to the Parade of Homes. I decided ahead of time I would be looking at things I would have when we built our new one. And nothing was out of reach so I could dream shop to the limit. So we drove into the subdivision for the first house and I immediately said to myself, "I wish we could have a house like this but there's no way." Well, I immediately (mentally) slapped myself, and I started doing "positive thinking." And it worked, and then I passed another gorgeous house, and I did it again, and again, and again, all day long. I tried really hard, even talking to a builder about what I would like to have him change when he built my house. And I meant it. Could it be that I'm making progress?
From "What about Bob?". . . . . . baby steps, baby steps.
You see, today was the Parade of Homes. Now, I quit going to them several years ago because I convinced myself I'd never be able to have any of those things so why look. But today I girded up my loin (whatever that means), and we went to the Parade of Homes. I decided ahead of time I would be looking at things I would have when we built our new one. And nothing was out of reach so I could dream shop to the limit. So we drove into the subdivision for the first house and I immediately said to myself, "I wish we could have a house like this but there's no way." Well, I immediately (mentally) slapped myself, and I started doing "positive thinking." And it worked, and then I passed another gorgeous house, and I did it again, and again, and again, all day long. I tried really hard, even talking to a builder about what I would like to have him change when he built my house. And I meant it. Could it be that I'm making progress?
From "What about Bob?". . . . . . baby steps, baby steps.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Wow, teeter-totter!
I'm reading and learning and processing (and processing, and processing) and I've gone from euphoria, to satisfied, to depressed. I keep having trouble with the negatives niggling their way in. Also, it's hard for me to self-direct to peaceful, quiet, introspection when there are so many external things hollering at me. I try by turning off the radio, or the tv, and going longer with ambient sounds. But I still can't seem to discipline myself to the medatitive state. I know now that the meditative state, if for no other reason than a venue to better absorb the information, is essential. No....I need a word that's stronger than essential, and since I reached a certain age, choosing the best word from the five that apply isn't happening. My hard drive (mind) has maxed out and I'm droping words, documents and files all over the place. Maybe, if I can acheve an expansion of my consciousness, I'll find them again and have a place to put them back!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
I keep reading, and the premise keeps expanding
I've been reading the book, "Discover the Power Within You" by Eric Butterworth, and he has an interesting view of the embodiment of the power within. As I study, almost all of the publications I've read so far teach that the Universe is the source of all power, and we are all connected to the universe. Somewhere in there I began to wonder if this was decrying God, as I know God. I don't believe so, and there are a couple of reasons why. Of course, we've all heard of the "big bang theory," that the universe was created from one event. And that may very well be true, but the source of the event is still in question, or maybe it isn't. I recently came from an exhibit of pictures taken by the Hubble telescope of the universe including many other galaxies besides our own. Looking at them, in a serene environment, was a deeply emotional experience and I recognized omnipotence. Imagine, if you will, the immense intelligence of a being who can, with a snap of their finger, cause reactions on a molecular level that create every infinitesimal thing within the range of our eyesight and beyond. Think of an artist with a blank canvas and how quickly a unique and magnificent painting can depict things that were, perhaps moments before, just the gram of an idea in the artist's mind. Given that small potential, after looking at the Hubble photographs, it's not hard to recognize creation that has been ongoing for millions and millions and millions of years, ad infinitum. I am connected to God in ways I never imagined, and I intend to explore and expand on that connection. Being as flawed as I am at this process right now, this might take awhile.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Trying hypnosis
I've started looking into self-hypnosis to see if I could use it to get over some of my self-made blocks to increase my progress (I assume I'm making some). Anyway, the other day at the state fair I ended up on stage at the hypnotist show and really, really thought I was not a good candidate because I was positive I wasn't hypnotized.....wellllll, the post-hypnotic suggestion he gave--that I would burst into laughter whenever anyone would shake my hand after left the stage--worked. People kept reaching for my hand as I walked back to my seat, and I would grab their hand and laugh hillariously! Guess there might be hope for me yet. It would be nice if I could get out of my own way!
Friday, September 10, 2010
It's so hard.....
I didn't realize it was going to be this hard. Middle of the month, bills came in, looked at the bank account and it sure doesn't look like I can cover everything. So I tried not to focus on what I didn't have, and I really struggled to re-direct my mind, but it's like trying to keep a piece of candy from a puppy (more like a lion from a piece of steak). It's hard because I've been conditioned to react and believe something I'm now learning not to do.
In addition, I don't think John is anywhere near the level I am in this project and I wonder if one person is working hard to attract, and the partner doesn't believe, is the attraction negated?
Did I mention this is hard?
Okay, yesterday I came up with a little song to take my mind away from the negative. It's a derrivitive from "If you're happy and you know it..." (wait a minute before you start laughing)
"I've got money in the bank, shout hooray! I've got money in the bank, shout hooray! I've got money in the bank and I know just who to thank. I've got money in the bank, shout hooray!" Okay, now go ahead and laugh, but I sang it over and over while I was making maccaroni and cheese and I punched the air with each "hooray." It worked. At least enough to change my focus. I think I'm going to have to do that a lot. It's going to look weird but 50 some-odd years of conditioning is hard to undo.
In addition, I don't think John is anywhere near the level I am in this project and I wonder if one person is working hard to attract, and the partner doesn't believe, is the attraction negated?
Did I mention this is hard?
Okay, yesterday I came up with a little song to take my mind away from the negative. It's a derrivitive from "If you're happy and you know it..." (wait a minute before you start laughing)
"I've got money in the bank, shout hooray! I've got money in the bank, shout hooray! I've got money in the bank and I know just who to thank. I've got money in the bank, shout hooray!" Okay, now go ahead and laugh, but I sang it over and over while I was making maccaroni and cheese and I punched the air with each "hooray." It worked. At least enough to change my focus. I think I'm going to have to do that a lot. It's going to look weird but 50 some-odd years of conditioning is hard to undo.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Focus on what you want - a case study (sort of)
The master premise of using the power within is to focus on what you want. I've said many times that your mind doesn't know what you're feeding it. Good or bad thoughts, it absorbs them. It's true. I'm trying very hard (and believe me, it's tough), to focus on what I want right now.
It's difficult because it's the beginning of the month, John just got his paycheck, and two of the major bills we have to pay will take all of it. So I'm stuck with a pile of bills with no way to pay them. So I've been focusing on the lack of money which, of course, will bring me a lack of money. My mind has been trained for so long one way that it's a struggle to look at another. I've put a rubber band on my wrist and flip it each time I start thinking negatively. And the rest of the time I'm thinking, and saying "Thank you for paying my bills" over and over.
That's not the case study. THIS is the case study.
I have some friends who are wonderful people. They're loving, caring, and frightened (I'm pretty sure that's the right word). They've lived a bounteous lifestyle and then they became victims of a Ponzi scheme and lost it all. Because of the husband's talents and skills, and a help from his father, they've managed to invent something that brought them back to the brink of where they were. And they went into a business that was supposed to be profitable for them. Side note: they're very much afraid to trust anyone now, no matter how sincere they are.
From the beginning small problems kept cropping up, and, despite intervention on several levels, the problems became bigger and bigger to the point that now their investment is sitting, doing nothing, and they're really frustrated.
They're living what they are thinking about all of the time.
Every time we talk there's a litany of the myriad of problems that are constantly expanding and multiplying. I feel helpless because I can't fix it for them, but neither can they because "they're living what they think about most of the time." Prayer hasn't seemed to help, hoping hasn't seemed to help, a smiling countenance hasn't helped, because these things aren't a constant focus. Their focus, like my rubber band, keeps coming back--like a virus.
I want this to work so well for us that I can prove it to others. Positive proof that things can change. But it remains to be seen whether they will believe or not.
It's difficult because it's the beginning of the month, John just got his paycheck, and two of the major bills we have to pay will take all of it. So I'm stuck with a pile of bills with no way to pay them. So I've been focusing on the lack of money which, of course, will bring me a lack of money. My mind has been trained for so long one way that it's a struggle to look at another. I've put a rubber band on my wrist and flip it each time I start thinking negatively. And the rest of the time I'm thinking, and saying "Thank you for paying my bills" over and over.
That's not the case study. THIS is the case study.
I have some friends who are wonderful people. They're loving, caring, and frightened (I'm pretty sure that's the right word). They've lived a bounteous lifestyle and then they became victims of a Ponzi scheme and lost it all. Because of the husband's talents and skills, and a help from his father, they've managed to invent something that brought them back to the brink of where they were. And they went into a business that was supposed to be profitable for them. Side note: they're very much afraid to trust anyone now, no matter how sincere they are.
From the beginning small problems kept cropping up, and, despite intervention on several levels, the problems became bigger and bigger to the point that now their investment is sitting, doing nothing, and they're really frustrated.
They're living what they are thinking about all of the time.
Every time we talk there's a litany of the myriad of problems that are constantly expanding and multiplying. I feel helpless because I can't fix it for them, but neither can they because "they're living what they think about most of the time." Prayer hasn't seemed to help, hoping hasn't seemed to help, a smiling countenance hasn't helped, because these things aren't a constant focus. Their focus, like my rubber band, keeps coming back--like a virus.
I want this to work so well for us that I can prove it to others. Positive proof that things can change. But it remains to be seen whether they will believe or not.
I've already been practicing
Just had a flashback today. I realized I've been using my power off and on, yet not realizing the extent of it. For ages, when I've started to feel sick, I tell myself I'm not. And I haven't been sick for a looooonnng time. When I feel lousey, I tell myself I'm happy, and I am. When I'm tired and still have things that have to be done, I tell myself I'm not tired, and I'm not tired. (Don't worry, I don't do this when I drive.) When I'm afraid, -----well, sometimes that one doesn't work. I still believe there are lions on the back patio of the house where I grew up. And it was a long-long walkway to the front door. Maybe that's where I learned to run so fast!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Wrote myself a check
Following the advice given in "The Secret," I've written myself a sizable check and put it in a prominent place. And, I've started listing what I'm going to spend it on as if it were already in my hands.
Believing has been hard in some instances, and a given in others.
What's intriguing to me is the physics interpretation that has been put forth from several sources. If I contemplate and accept that everything is interconnected, it makes accepting the possibilities a lot more plausible.
However, I think it's important to note that the most obvious evidence of the use of the power within has come from the Bingo game. Honest! Not very practical, but evidential.
Believing has been hard in some instances, and a given in others.
What's intriguing to me is the physics interpretation that has been put forth from several sources. If I contemplate and accept that everything is interconnected, it makes accepting the possibilities a lot more plausible.
However, I think it's important to note that the most obvious evidence of the use of the power within has come from the Bingo game. Honest! Not very practical, but evidential.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Timely topics?
That's what a friend told me when something happened last month.
I hadn't expected to post again until tomorrow, BUT..... I had just glanced at the cover of the new "O" before I wrote the last entry.
I just picked up the magazine and looked at it carefully, and here are two of the titles from the cover: "How to Tap Into Your Strength,"and "Focus Your Energy,"
I haven't read the articles yet, but I'll soon know if they're as applicable as their titles.
By the way, here's a quote--paraphrased--I absolutely know is true: "Believe you can, or think you can't. Whichever way, you're right." -- Henry Ford (The actual quote is "If you think you can do a thing or think you can't do a thing, you're right." --Henry Ford)
I hadn't expected to post again until tomorrow, BUT..... I had just glanced at the cover of the new "O" before I wrote the last entry.
I just picked up the magazine and looked at it carefully, and here are two of the titles from the cover: "How to Tap Into Your Strength,"and "Focus Your Energy,"
I haven't read the articles yet, but I'll soon know if they're as applicable as their titles.
By the way, here's a quote--paraphrased--I absolutely know is true: "Believe you can, or think you can't. Whichever way, you're right." -- Henry Ford (The actual quote is "If you think you can do a thing or think you can't do a thing, you're right." --Henry Ford)
The "Oprah Experiment"
A recent issue of "O" magazine had lots of bargains in it and discounts that Oprah had arranged for some really cute and amazing things. Unfortunately, while I like the "O" magazine, and I LOVE Oprah, as I turned each page my internal voice kept saying, "I can't afford that," or "I can't justify buying that on our income. The bills come first." I finished the magazine and set it down, filled with disappointment. I didn't even feel I could look at something and dream about it. What good was looking if I knew I couldn't have it? Now Oprah would be all over me if she heard me, and "the other me" would be climbing all over my case admonishing me to quit putting up my own roadblocks, and chastising "why don't you think you deserve these things? You deserve anything you can dream of." Obviously, I hadn't been listening to myself. I've been a hypocrite...for a really long time. It really bothers me to realize that.
One of the precepts about the power within is that you create your own reality. By saying "I know I can't have it.", I was creating that reality.
Now, because part of the power within is believing your worth, and that you are worthy of obtaining things, and goals, etc., when the new "O" magazine came this week, before I even opened it I decided to look at everthings differently as I leafed through it.
Part of the training, and the goal, is to be able to look at what you want, or think of what you want, and imagine yourself actually in possession of whatever it is. If it's a house, believe you're already standing in it and walk through, decorating it as you go. If it's money, believe it's already in your hand and start spending it (figuratively). Imagination has a lot to do with using the power within, being absolutely positive that it will happen--scratch that--positive that it already has happened.
So now I'm going to look at the new issue of "O" with a different attitude. My imagination made me happy as a child. Just because I'm older doesn't mean it can't have the same effect.
One of the precepts about the power within is that you create your own reality. By saying "I know I can't have it.", I was creating that reality.
Now, because part of the power within is believing your worth, and that you are worthy of obtaining things, and goals, etc., when the new "O" magazine came this week, before I even opened it I decided to look at everthings differently as I leafed through it.
Part of the training, and the goal, is to be able to look at what you want, or think of what you want, and imagine yourself actually in possession of whatever it is. If it's a house, believe you're already standing in it and walk through, decorating it as you go. If it's money, believe it's already in your hand and start spending it (figuratively). Imagination has a lot to do with using the power within, being absolutely positive that it will happen--scratch that--positive that it already has happened.
So now I'm going to look at the new issue of "O" with a different attitude. My imagination made me happy as a child. Just because I'm older doesn't mean it can't have the same effect.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Gratitude
In studying the law of attraction, I decided today to focus on the attitude of gratitude and had an excellent opportunity to practice. We drove down to my home town for their annual Founder's Day celebration and after the Fireman's Breakfast, the parade, the sham battle, and lunch and a mini-reunion with my cousin's family, we headed for home. We took the alternate, more scenic route through a gorgeous canyon and....we'll here's the entry in my journal.
"At this moment we're in Logan Canyon, just past the Beaver Mountain turn-off and we have a flat tire. So I'm practicing the positive. A man came up to see if we needed help and said, "Flat tire? Bad luck." Bad luck? Hardly. I'm grateful that it happened before we started up the long incline. I'm grateful that, even though we were going fast, the flat didn't cause us to lose control and we were able to stop immediately--in a conveniently located large turnout area that was an entrance to a lodge. I'm thankful we had a lot of people around in case we needed help. I'm thankful it's daylight. I'm thankful our son is here to help us. I'm thankful we have a spare and the tools needed to make the exchange. I'm grateful the guys can change the tire and I can stay in the car out of the wind. I'm grateful I brought something to do while I waited. I'm thankful the guys were able to change the tire in record time, and I'm thankful we'll be safe going home.
Just looking at this small incident and all of the things I have to be grateful for, I'm more aware of the positives that are constantly happening, and I can definitely see the benefit of focusing on gratitude. I have a lot more to be thankful for than I do to worry about."
My paradigm is shifting.
"At this moment we're in Logan Canyon, just past the Beaver Mountain turn-off and we have a flat tire. So I'm practicing the positive. A man came up to see if we needed help and said, "Flat tire? Bad luck." Bad luck? Hardly. I'm grateful that it happened before we started up the long incline. I'm grateful that, even though we were going fast, the flat didn't cause us to lose control and we were able to stop immediately--in a conveniently located large turnout area that was an entrance to a lodge. I'm thankful we had a lot of people around in case we needed help. I'm thankful it's daylight. I'm thankful our son is here to help us. I'm thankful we have a spare and the tools needed to make the exchange. I'm grateful the guys can change the tire and I can stay in the car out of the wind. I'm grateful I brought something to do while I waited. I'm thankful the guys were able to change the tire in record time, and I'm thankful we'll be safe going home.
Just looking at this small incident and all of the things I have to be grateful for, I'm more aware of the positives that are constantly happening, and I can definitely see the benefit of focusing on gratitude. I have a lot more to be thankful for than I do to worry about."
My paradigm is shifting.
I have a rock...
By now I've read, listened and watched so many books, cds, and dvds that I can't remember what I got from which one, but I've adopted tips and instructions that either seemed to just "be right," or (okay, I'm lazy) that take little time and effort compared to others. The rock happened to fit beautifully into my lifestyle. Some say there are no coincidences. I've been chalking a lot of those happenings to providence. So, I guess they're right.
Anyway, a few weeks ago I picked up a box of rocks and stones (I guess there's a difference) at a yard sale. Big ones, little ones, raw ones, polished ones. And I got a little more of the history of the collection than I expected. Turns out the father was a rock hound, often to the detriment of his family, which was more than willing to get rid of what--I'm sure--he thought was a valuable collection. For a pittance. I was happy, I like pretty rocks.
Flash forward to now and one story from the books stuck out from the others. It told of a man who picked a special stone (or rock) and carried it in his pocket every day as an instrument to be used in the gratitude part of using his power within. The man would express his gratitude each night when he took the rock out of his pocket, and then again each morning as he put it back in. I've got to say it's better than going around with strings on your fingers to remind you. Since I just acquired a great collection of rocks, it didn't take long to find my "gratitude rock" Now I use it, besides my prayers, every morning and night, and the neat thing about having it in my pocket is that everytime I put my hand in my pocket and feel it, I automatically look for, or think of, something to give thanks for. Now I thank more often. Because I've been given much.
In addition to the rock, I picked up a pretty spiral note pad at the $1 store today and started listing things to be thankful for as they come to mind. I'll bet I fill the book before the month is over.
An unexpected side effect of this exercise is that I look for something that I'm thankful for while I'm in the middle of a problem or argument. Sure puts a different perspective on things.
Anyway, a few weeks ago I picked up a box of rocks and stones (I guess there's a difference) at a yard sale. Big ones, little ones, raw ones, polished ones. And I got a little more of the history of the collection than I expected. Turns out the father was a rock hound, often to the detriment of his family, which was more than willing to get rid of what--I'm sure--he thought was a valuable collection. For a pittance. I was happy, I like pretty rocks.
Flash forward to now and one story from the books stuck out from the others. It told of a man who picked a special stone (or rock) and carried it in his pocket every day as an instrument to be used in the gratitude part of using his power within. The man would express his gratitude each night when he took the rock out of his pocket, and then again each morning as he put it back in. I've got to say it's better than going around with strings on your fingers to remind you. Since I just acquired a great collection of rocks, it didn't take long to find my "gratitude rock" Now I use it, besides my prayers, every morning and night, and the neat thing about having it in my pocket is that everytime I put my hand in my pocket and feel it, I automatically look for, or think of, something to give thanks for. Now I thank more often. Because I've been given much.
In addition to the rock, I picked up a pretty spiral note pad at the $1 store today and started listing things to be thankful for as they come to mind. I'll bet I fill the book before the month is over.
An unexpected side effect of this exercise is that I look for something that I'm thankful for while I'm in the middle of a problem or argument. Sure puts a different perspective on things.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Making headway, sort of
I missed a couple of days, which has been--in the past--normal for me. I'm going to try not to do that again, starting with this.
One thing I've found out already: It's hard to do the things I'm supposed to do. I should probably spend every waking minute re-adjusting myself. Thank goodness for books on CD because I can put one in no matter where I'm working and, hopefully, subliminaly absorb pertinent things.
One thing that's changed since my first post is my husband, (I'll just call him "J"). I was listening to the 2nd disk of "The Secret" when he came home last night and got him to sit down and listen while I replayed it.
He's really struggling with feeling entitled to anything, and definitely dwelling on the money part. His comment about believing and acting as if you already had the money you wanted or needed was "what if you don't get the money?", which is negating it all because--obviously--he's not really believing.
This may not seem important, BUT, he's been among the living dead for so long (depression and self-defeating thoughts) that it was almost a miracle when he actually listened and discussed the points with me. and to listen to him start a paradigm shift. It was a tiny shift, but tiny shifts sometimes bring big changes.
Listening to the cd's and reading the books, I recognize many of my behaviors or traits as self-defeating, and blocking my way to what I really want. What's really sad about that is that I'm constantly telling nay-sayers that the word "can't" doesn't exist. Or if it does, it's just another way of saying "I don't want to try." Saying or thinking "can't" puts up roadblocks against succeeding. I succeed in practicing what I preach about 70% of the time. (I use to think it was 100% until I started this journey). I am adamant that if something needs to be done, and it can't be done one way, it can be done another way, or another way, somehow.
And in my personal life many times I've taken a deep breath and tried something I could have said "can't" to. Like the time my friend loaned me his race car to enter an amateur powderpuff race. I thought I was doing good until I ended up wwwwwaaaaaayyyy back in the pack for the feature. Then a friend who was also in the race--but a lot of cars ahead of me--said "well, at least I don't have to worry about you." I had a goal! (maybe that's the whole key) Anyway, while I was passing her, I ended up passing all but one of the other drivers to end the race in 2nd place!
Another time I started a new job and the group was going bungee jumping that weekend and I kinda had to say yes when they invited me. Okay, it took lots of false starts and about a half-hour for me to get down but I DID GET DOWN, saying "oh, s***" all the way.
Anyway, despite a lot of successess, despite my admonitions to others, I've found I "can't" myself an awful lot. Boy do I need this stuff. If for no other reason than I come out of it with a stronger sense of self.
Tomorrow I'm going to start working on my "possibilities" book. Make that my "shopping list" because I have to act and believe as if the things in it are already mine. I'm mentally building my dream house. I've been online to create and customize my car, and I've got a bucket list I'm going to add not as a "want to do" but a "going to do." Tomorrow I'm going to put my bucket list on here so I can have it in front of me at least once a day. And add to it as things start rolling.
Things will happen. As I believe they are, and doubts pop up, I just have to remember the "order(s)" I've placed and wait for the delivery. I've never doubted UPS. Why should I doubt the universe?
One thing I've found out already: It's hard to do the things I'm supposed to do. I should probably spend every waking minute re-adjusting myself. Thank goodness for books on CD because I can put one in no matter where I'm working and, hopefully, subliminaly absorb pertinent things.
One thing that's changed since my first post is my husband, (I'll just call him "J"). I was listening to the 2nd disk of "The Secret" when he came home last night and got him to sit down and listen while I replayed it.
He's really struggling with feeling entitled to anything, and definitely dwelling on the money part. His comment about believing and acting as if you already had the money you wanted or needed was "what if you don't get the money?", which is negating it all because--obviously--he's not really believing.
This may not seem important, BUT, he's been among the living dead for so long (depression and self-defeating thoughts) that it was almost a miracle when he actually listened and discussed the points with me. and to listen to him start a paradigm shift. It was a tiny shift, but tiny shifts sometimes bring big changes.
Listening to the cd's and reading the books, I recognize many of my behaviors or traits as self-defeating, and blocking my way to what I really want. What's really sad about that is that I'm constantly telling nay-sayers that the word "can't" doesn't exist. Or if it does, it's just another way of saying "I don't want to try." Saying or thinking "can't" puts up roadblocks against succeeding. I succeed in practicing what I preach about 70% of the time. (I use to think it was 100% until I started this journey). I am adamant that if something needs to be done, and it can't be done one way, it can be done another way, or another way, somehow.
And in my personal life many times I've taken a deep breath and tried something I could have said "can't" to. Like the time my friend loaned me his race car to enter an amateur powderpuff race. I thought I was doing good until I ended up wwwwwaaaaaayyyy back in the pack for the feature. Then a friend who was also in the race--but a lot of cars ahead of me--said "well, at least I don't have to worry about you." I had a goal! (maybe that's the whole key) Anyway, while I was passing her, I ended up passing all but one of the other drivers to end the race in 2nd place!
Another time I started a new job and the group was going bungee jumping that weekend and I kinda had to say yes when they invited me. Okay, it took lots of false starts and about a half-hour for me to get down but I DID GET DOWN, saying "oh, s***" all the way.
Anyway, despite a lot of successess, despite my admonitions to others, I've found I "can't" myself an awful lot. Boy do I need this stuff. If for no other reason than I come out of it with a stronger sense of self.
Tomorrow I'm going to start working on my "possibilities" book. Make that my "shopping list" because I have to act and believe as if the things in it are already mine. I'm mentally building my dream house. I've been online to create and customize my car, and I've got a bucket list I'm going to add not as a "want to do" but a "going to do." Tomorrow I'm going to put my bucket list on here so I can have it in front of me at least once a day. And add to it as things start rolling.
Things will happen. As I believe they are, and doubts pop up, I just have to remember the "order(s)" I've placed and wait for the delivery. I've never doubted UPS. Why should I doubt the universe?
Thursday, September 2, 2010
I Had to Start Sometime
If you're short on time, or attention span (hey, I'm not being insulting, I have ADD and my attention span is oftentimes abbreviated), because I started this like a journal, here's a synopsis:
Sick of living my life the way I have been; definitely looking for a change. A chance listen to a CD clicked, then I listened to another, different, one and....you guessed it--click again. I've been trying to make changes in my life, from the external me. These two DVDs lead me to look inside myself; to look at myself very differently. Then I started reading suggested books and noticing that all roads were leading to the same source of the changes I wanted to make, and the source was within me. Some things were hard to accept (but any lifestyle change will be that way), but when they put the metaphysical together with the physical and connected the dots, I really started paying attention. This blog is a record of my journey to my within. Join me.
IF YOU HAVE TIME...HERE'S A MORE DEFINED BEGINNING.
I've realized that, at this time of my life, I'm definitely not where I wanted to be. I'm struggling with choices, I'm debt burdened, I'm creatively stifled, and -- as I remember from a poster I hung once upon a time (author unknown) -- "God put me on this earth to accomplish a certain number of things. Right now I'm so far behind I'll never die!"
It's not that I haven't been guided to make different decisions (I really do hear that "still, small voice" and get prompts). But I've realized that I haven't been listening. Oh, but that realization has come after I started studying books and DVDs and Cd's that deal with the use of the power within.
It's also not that I haven't been interested in this subject in the past. In fact, I actually had some of the materials that were recommended by various persons, and have listened and read them time after time. I mean, I've read and listened to Napoleon Hill's "Think and Grow Rich," I have the cassette collection of Earl Nightengale's "Lead the Field," Anthony Robbins' "Unlimited Power," Dr. Wayne Dyer's "How to Be a No-Limit Person," among others. I have, in my bookcase, Anthony Robbins' "Awaken the Giant Within," Dr. Dyer's "The Sky's the Limit," and several books by Og Mandingo. as well as several more. and whatever I don't have in my library, I can get from the public library (we have an excellent one). So it's not that I haven't dipped my mind into the pool, but I've never really committed myself to practicing what I've heard/read/listened to, until last month.
This is getting wordy and if you're not already bored to death and headed to something more fun, I promise I'll try to be more concise and still get my point/feelings/musings across.
In the middle of July I picked up a CD that I'd ignored and moved around, and piled stuff on for quite some time. It was sent as a perk with a book I ordered to eliminate/cut down my debt. It was "25 Secrets to Wealth Creation" by Kevin Trudeau. "Hey, it can't hurt," I thought, so I put it in my DVD player to listen to while I cleaned my bedroom. And then, part of the way through it, I paused it and replayed a section over and over and over until I had written down every book title he recommended I read. Then I gathered the books (I already had a couple), and requested the books from the library and started reading, and listening, and reading and listening, and then last month I saw an audio book at the library that seemed to have another set of lifelines I could grab onto. The book is "5 Things a Millionaire Taught Me" by Richard Paul Evans. I checked out the book and listened to it over and over and I realized......all of these books and all of these people are saying the same thing. The control over my life, what I get, what I don't get, what will happen and what won't happen, is within myself.
Okay, long story shortened is, I'm going to keep listening and reading, and I'm going to put into practice the things they say I should do and by the end of a year (think positive), I'll be happy, I'll be healthy, I'll be wealthy, and -- who knows what else.
I've talked my husband listening to Trudeau's CD and Evan's CD, and I'm so egotistical I truly felt that he must get as involved and excited as I am because I'm going to take a trip with this, and he's either coming with me or he's not.
As a side note, my husband's creative, talented, funny, and mostly healthy, and handsome. He's also pragmatic, depressed, introverted, and he's given up on doing anything but existing for the rest of his life. I've spent the last 10 years trying many things to get him to believe in himself, and to DO things and I've finally realized I can't help him if he doesn't want to be helped. Ergo, the edict.
Okay, to end the beginning of this blog I'm just going to say that I've tried a little, and I've seen results, and I'm going to dig in and try harder. So either close this and say "she's a nut case," or follow along. Or you could make the trip yourself and we'll compare notes.
Starting September 2, 2010, I'm going to unlock the "secrets" these people have talked about; I'm going to use them and learn how to use them more and find the power within myself and maybe, just maybe, I'll achieve the things my Father sent me here to do!
Sick of living my life the way I have been; definitely looking for a change. A chance listen to a CD clicked, then I listened to another, different, one and....you guessed it--click again. I've been trying to make changes in my life, from the external me. These two DVDs lead me to look inside myself; to look at myself very differently. Then I started reading suggested books and noticing that all roads were leading to the same source of the changes I wanted to make, and the source was within me. Some things were hard to accept (but any lifestyle change will be that way), but when they put the metaphysical together with the physical and connected the dots, I really started paying attention. This blog is a record of my journey to my within. Join me.
IF YOU HAVE TIME...HERE'S A MORE DEFINED BEGINNING.
I've realized that, at this time of my life, I'm definitely not where I wanted to be. I'm struggling with choices, I'm debt burdened, I'm creatively stifled, and -- as I remember from a poster I hung once upon a time (author unknown) -- "God put me on this earth to accomplish a certain number of things. Right now I'm so far behind I'll never die!"
It's not that I haven't been guided to make different decisions (I really do hear that "still, small voice" and get prompts). But I've realized that I haven't been listening. Oh, but that realization has come after I started studying books and DVDs and Cd's that deal with the use of the power within.
It's also not that I haven't been interested in this subject in the past. In fact, I actually had some of the materials that were recommended by various persons, and have listened and read them time after time. I mean, I've read and listened to Napoleon Hill's "Think and Grow Rich," I have the cassette collection of Earl Nightengale's "Lead the Field," Anthony Robbins' "Unlimited Power," Dr. Wayne Dyer's "How to Be a No-Limit Person," among others. I have, in my bookcase, Anthony Robbins' "Awaken the Giant Within," Dr. Dyer's "The Sky's the Limit," and several books by Og Mandingo. as well as several more. and whatever I don't have in my library, I can get from the public library (we have an excellent one). So it's not that I haven't dipped my mind into the pool, but I've never really committed myself to practicing what I've heard/read/listened to, until last month.
This is getting wordy and if you're not already bored to death and headed to something more fun, I promise I'll try to be more concise and still get my point/feelings/musings across.
In the middle of July I picked up a CD that I'd ignored and moved around, and piled stuff on for quite some time. It was sent as a perk with a book I ordered to eliminate/cut down my debt. It was "25 Secrets to Wealth Creation" by Kevin Trudeau. "Hey, it can't hurt," I thought, so I put it in my DVD player to listen to while I cleaned my bedroom. And then, part of the way through it, I paused it and replayed a section over and over and over until I had written down every book title he recommended I read. Then I gathered the books (I already had a couple), and requested the books from the library and started reading, and listening, and reading and listening, and then last month I saw an audio book at the library that seemed to have another set of lifelines I could grab onto. The book is "5 Things a Millionaire Taught Me" by Richard Paul Evans. I checked out the book and listened to it over and over and I realized......all of these books and all of these people are saying the same thing. The control over my life, what I get, what I don't get, what will happen and what won't happen, is within myself.
Okay, long story shortened is, I'm going to keep listening and reading, and I'm going to put into practice the things they say I should do and by the end of a year (think positive), I'll be happy, I'll be healthy, I'll be wealthy, and -- who knows what else.
I've talked my husband listening to Trudeau's CD and Evan's CD, and I'm so egotistical I truly felt that he must get as involved and excited as I am because I'm going to take a trip with this, and he's either coming with me or he's not.
As a side note, my husband's creative, talented, funny, and mostly healthy, and handsome. He's also pragmatic, depressed, introverted, and he's given up on doing anything but existing for the rest of his life. I've spent the last 10 years trying many things to get him to believe in himself, and to DO things and I've finally realized I can't help him if he doesn't want to be helped. Ergo, the edict.
Okay, to end the beginning of this blog I'm just going to say that I've tried a little, and I've seen results, and I'm going to dig in and try harder. So either close this and say "she's a nut case," or follow along. Or you could make the trip yourself and we'll compare notes.
Starting September 2, 2010, I'm going to unlock the "secrets" these people have talked about; I'm going to use them and learn how to use them more and find the power within myself and maybe, just maybe, I'll achieve the things my Father sent me here to do!
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