It's a pendulum

Yesterday I hit a dip, a big dip, and I started to cry.  The thing I asked for, the one thing I asked for by the end of the month, didn't materialize. "Ah. There you go." you say.  And if you're someone who was so sure all along that this was bunk.  You can say, "I told you so."  But what I wrote the other day is absolutely true.  Though things haven't come as others say they do, or will, I've still managed to make a difference in how I approach each day.  So what's the harm in believing, or continuing to believe?  We're told to have faith in God; that he hears our prayers and answers them in his way, in his time.  And sometimes, something we wanted to have, or have happen, doesn't or won't. This is an exercise in faith and I should expect the same process.

My dip yesterday came from doing a printing job for a client.  I had put it off until the last minute and when I was half-way through the job, the printer wouldn't print the copies right.  And still won't, and I'm still in the middle of the job.  When I figured out what was wrong, and that it would take over $100 and 5 days to fix it, that's when I dipped. All of the doubts were pushing each other out of the way so they could come in first, and a few of them made it.  It was through a concerted effort that I was able to pull myself out of the dip within a half hour, and the thought that helped the most--I think--was that by acting fine, and acting positive, I would BE fine and I would BE positive.  I ended the day being fine, but as for the positive--I think I'm stuck on pragmatic.